by Ben Burgess Jr.
My rating: 5 stars
Publisher: Wasteland Press
Publication Date: December 16, 2013
Genre: Urban Fiction | Erotic
Paperback: 282 pages
Tormented while growing up for being dark-skinned, and the son of a womanizer who deserts his family regularly, Ken Ferguson longed for that feeling of being loved. Ken promised himself that he wouldn’t be a manipulating, deceitful man like his father, but after being cheated on and dumped by the girl he thought he would one day marry, he begins his transformation. Fueled by anger, and tired of being the “nice guy”, Ken drowns himself in one-night stands, threesomes, affairs with married women, and sleeping with one conquest after another. He adopts the philosophy of having no commitment and no attachments, but meets his match with Ashley, a girl that makes him want to stop his promiscuous ways. But Ashley turns out to do even more damage to his ego and his heart, wounding him deeply. With his philosophy reinforced, Ken spirals out of control and becomes a MONSTER. Sleeping with and mistreating random women he meets at bars and clubs, Ken uses sex to forget about his insecurities, his anger, and his sadness. Will Ken learn to let go of his heartbreaks, or will he be consumed by them and continue to be a MONSTER?
Monster by Ben Burgess Jr.
Can you name the types of people who are monsters in your mind? Some are born into conditions that breed anti-social behavior, some vow never to repeat the sins of their fathers, but heartbreak becomes their excuse to become a womanizing, sex-driven abuser of the worst kind. That is the kind of monster Ken has become as he spirals into the darkness of wanting more out of life and not knowing how to get it. Sure, he lives in a tough neighborhood where any softness makes one a target. He has his own group, complete with the false machismo young men strut in a world where how much sex you have is the mark of “being a man.” How far will Ken go in degrading himself and the women he uses? He has vowed to be the one to walk away from a one-night stand and never give his heart away, again. He has become the Master of his Universe, but little does he see his Universe is becoming smaller and smaller until he is the only one left within its borders. His minions and his stable of sex-partners have moved on, grown up and learned what the meaning of being a man is. Will it magnify his insecurities or open his eyes to the shame of weakness?
Ben Burgess Jr. has created a character that stumbles, falls and fails to get up, for fear of failure. It is easier for Ken to build himself into a legend in his own mind. Follow Ken through his lurid escapades, as Mr. Burgess draws a raw and stark portrait of using sex to soothe a damaged ego. The acts are graphic, they are clearly not made from love and it shows. No flowery descriptions to sigh with, each act shows how crass and hollow Ken has become and one cannot help but wish there was a way to reach this young man with so much potential.
Although written in an urban setting, focusing on a dark-skinned young man, this is more than a social statement of demographics, this is a look at the pain of a teen in crisis who finds no place to turn and attempts to create his own brand of cure. Will he discover he has more to give the world? He deserves better for himself, but first he needs to believe in himself and love, again.
Not for those who are squeamish about seeing the realities of others in stark relief, but if you are looking for a read that digs deep into the grit of life, Monster is both thought-provoking and heart-wrenching. Ben Burgess Jr. is a gifted author and he takes advantage of this with bold and confident strokes.
I received this copy from the author, Ben Burgess Jr., in exchange for my honest review.